Happiness is expensive

It's been a pretty rough month for me and even though we're nearing the holiday season, it may not get any easier. 

I was working so hard to get past the project deadlines that when the last week of school came by, the sweet taste in my mouth turned bitter. Suddenly, the reality of work life hit me hard and I began to appreciate what people in the marketplace loved about school- the flexibility in time, the people you don't have to answer to. But for me, I was looking forward to working because of I wanted to be in a job that I would love, something I'd be glad to wake up everyday for. School wasn't the best place for me and sometimes I certainly felt like a fish out of water. There were times when I had crappy project mates and I had to put with them or cover for their lackluster work. But I realised if I ever get a crappy boss, I can't avoid him/her everyday. In fact, the office would turn from something attractive to something repulsive.

Anyway, my whole confusion lately has been related to time and a dream. I don't exactly know when is the right time to chase a dream that has become part of me and if I should even chase it anymore. For now, I'm looking for some stability in life where I can settle down and get a job before moving on. I don't know if I'm ready to move on to something new again... This is when 'what if' questions surface and go unanswered. 

One life, big decisions and a pursuit of happiness. Self-fulfillment doesn't come easily but when you're there, happiness is all you have.